This is such a weird thing for me to write about because I don’t know to really explain this but here we go! Last week Friday Chris was out of the office and I was working on a few things I had to finish, one of them being research. I got all the other things done and only got a little bit of the searching done by the end of the day. I was happy with what I found but it wasn’t enough, so I went home and thought its fine I will do the rest on Monday and spent the weekend in Brighton with a few friends.
Monday I decided to work from home and tackle the research and a few extra things I had to finish off. It started off well till I got stuck on one of the topics I was meant to be searching for. Everything I was reading did not make sense to me, I spent over an hour searching for this one topic knowing I have another 2 to look up for. I was getting stressed out because this is the first time I am working from home and I really felt like I have NOTHING to show. I was feeling quite down because I was thinking for two days of research what I have in front of me is pitiful but because having little is still having nothing at all.
Tuesday I had gone back to the office and my day was going good, then it hit me that their was a whole other piece of work that I completely forgot to keep track of. By the time I was going home I realised that I have started to get to comfortable and I was not putting 110% in. I went home kicking myself because I know better than that. Me not telling Chris I was struggling with that piece of work made me feel silly because I was told on my very first day. “If you are
struggling with anything just tell me.” But for some reason I did not listen to that advice and it cost me a whole day.
So Wednesday I was not letting myself slip any lower than I have, I planned my day since the night before just to remain focused. Once I got in I got straight to work and by lunch time I was happy with the amount of work I got done I feel like I am catching up on all the work that I was letting slide. I am still disappointed in myself but I am happy to be on the right track again.
I had to talk about this because this is the first time that I was falling behind and I didn’t realise how easy it can happen and that it could set you back so much. So now I hope to remain focus as much as I can because the next few months are only going to get harder.
Guys wish me luck. I start my classes on Monday which I am still really excited for. Its going to be good seeing some of the old faces from Reboot camp. Thank you guys for ready yet another blog of mine!